Well, that’s the problem with me.
Sabi nila, kapag raw nagpagupit ang babae ng maiksi, nagmo-move on daw. Kesyo na heartbroken o kaya may malaking pagbabago sa buhay na gustong kalimutan.
I had my hair cut last Friday lang. Udyok ng barkada. Bagay raw kasi sa’kin. Inaasar pa nga nila ako. People took it positively. May iba nagtatanong kung bakit daw ako nagpagupit. I jokingly said na lang na brokenhearted ako kahit na happy naman ang heart ko. Then I realized, no, I’m living a new life right now. I was sad before. Palaging stressed and depressed then someone came along who pulled me to the positive side and I’m happy again. Yung kahit nababadtrip ako minsan, natutulog pa rin akong masaya. Yung kahit naiinis at nagagalit sa maliliit na bagay, lamang pa rin yung saya. I’m living a new life right now. Yung less heartaches, worries and sadness na.
So here’s my new hair. What you think?
Ugali ko na talaga na dumaan sa school chapel bago pumasok sa klase just to offer prayer and ask guidance from Above. Pagpasok ko kanina, I found a bowl of rolled papers with label na “Though of the Day.” I was hesitant na kumuha but after I prayed, I get back to the bowl and get one. Di ko pa nga alam kung ibabalik ko pa sa bowl pero dahil naka-tape siya, kinuha ko na since late na rin naman ako sa class ko. I opened it sa room namin and saw the message. My face lighted instantly. Napa-smile ako. Nakaka-good vibes kapag may nababasa kang ganito tuwing umaga.
We’re the future Mr. and Mrs.
Every time we talk about our future together, I get this urge inside of me to get married already and settle down with you. But yeah, we’re still young for such things and that we’re not yet ready once we enter that particular stage of life. Still, those scenarios I make in my mind makes me excited even more.
Five to six years from now, we’ll be saying our vows to each other in front of the altar. I’ll promise you to love you forever and ever and share the rest of my life with you. And you’ll promise to be there for me always as my loving partner. And after that, you’re finally mine and I’m yours and literally, we’re husband and wife already. Then we’ll live on the same house and fill that house with laughter and happy memories. We’ll build our own family and we’ll treasure our kids like precious jewels. We’ll watch over them as they grow up and teach them the right way of life and how it goes. We’ll make them God-fearing individuals and we’ll never fail to teach them the real meaning of kindness.
Can’t you feel it? I mean the chills. The excitement. The adrenaline rush. Though I really wanna get married right now, at this moment, with you, I have to tell myself that it isn’t the right time. We still have a lot of dreams to catch first before we can settled down. I guess right now, let’s just pretend that we’re husband and wife.
I want to thank you for everything that you do for me. Thank you for always understanding my behavior. I’m thankful that you accept me for being who I am and who I was. Thank you for the sweet little efforts you do just not to lose me. I appreciate those. But most of all, thank you for the love.
I’m sorry if sometimes I doubt you and your intentions. I’m sorry if sometimes, I take you for granted just because I know you’ll stay. I’m sorry when sometimes I act childish and immature but that is all just because I also want to be taken care of.
I am just so glad that you came into my life. Maybe it takes me awhile to realize it but I will always appreciate you. Just thank you. I love you.
4 months till November. 4 long months but I think I will never be ready to leave.
I’m leaving our house for OJT. As I posted before, I will have my OJT in Manila. We still haven’t decided about the company where I will work but my parents are really supporting my decision to work outside Batangas. I still have questions if I’m making the right decision, or can I live without my family, or can I do things on my own. I think I will never know until it will all happen. I’m just thankful that they let me chase my dreams and do things my way. Although I’m still having second thoughts, I will pursue what I truly want.